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Have a treat, sweetie, this is another piece of a fic for the loveliest @hotgirlstiles
He was done and set up to go. The bag at his feet, the passport in his pocket.
Derek didn’t move.
Out of the corner of his eyes, he saw Peter sigh and fold his arms, though the man didn’t say a thing. He heard Derek’s racing heartbeat. The stench of his apprehension and grim anger soaked every corner around them.
Suddenly, there were steps. Small and quiet, as if the person tried really hard not to be heard.
Derek’s head snapped to the side. His throat tightened at the sight of the omega peeking out of the corner. With his heart beating out of his chest, Derek lifted his hand.
“Come here,” he begged.
Ignoring Peter altogether, Stiles walked briskly towards him and pressed himself against his chest, folding his arms on Derek’s back. He wasn’t crying but took deep breaths where his nose was buried in Derek’s neck.
Derek wrapped his arms tightly around his frame and put his lips against Stiles’ ear.
“Listen to Peter, okay? I trust him. I wouldn’t leave you with someone I didn’t trust.”
“Okay,” said Stiles barely above a breath.
“I’ll try to be quick,” Derek promised hotly.
Stiles tensed a bit, took a deep breath, and extracted himself from Derek’s arms. He didn’t ask where Derek was going, for how long, or why. He just smiled politely and nodded.
It wasn’t his smile, not the one Derek knew. The wolf wanted to take Stiles and shake the truth out of him, to scream and beg until Stiles told him what had happened between the kiss and him waking up.
Do you regret it? Did you forget it? Do you think it was a dream? Do you want more?
Derek stared at him for a couple of seconds, then grabbed his face, and pressed a searing kiss to his cheekbone. It lasted a second, even less. Then, again, eternity would not be enough for the wolf.
Without a word, without a glance, Derek turned around, grabbed his bag, and marched out of the house.
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#it's hard to choose a piece bc everything is so spoilery#this feels innocent enough#I'm at 57k and the end is nowhere near#sterek#sterek fic#stiles stilinski#derek hale#stiles x derek#eternal sterek#sterek fanfic#hedwig221b replies#anon asks#sterek wip#sterek abo
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me think cody like sierra ahhhhh!
ok this was sent in at the same time as the other weird question but our Sierra is normal now
… chat what do we think? pure intentions or nah? (I genuinely need help deciding if we let this one pass.)
#total drama#total drama headcanons#total drama island#total drama au#headcanon#tdi#mom come pick me up i'm scared#like genuinely#what am i supposed to do#this feels innocent enough#helep#send help
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Smell Check [Easy: Failure]
MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 1 (part 2 - part 3)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#disco elysium#MDZS Disco Elysium AU#So sad I didn't manage to get this comic out on the 15th (pd-mdzs's 8 month anniversary and DE's 4th year anniversary) but I'm here *now*#I have a very extensive and detailed MDZS Disco Elysium AU that I am Not Normal About.#I've seen a few other people point out the potential in a crossover (true) but they make the mistake in having it be set in 51!#A true crossover would take place closer to The Antecentennial Revolution!#Disco Elysium did not go that hard on its cool lore for people to only make surface level crossovers!!!#One day I'll write the fic or post my notes. I don't know who would read it but it tickles *my* brain and that's enough.#No spoilers for DE (here or in comments (please)) but please consider....Magpie Wei Wuxian B*) On his way to be an innocent.#I do think there is a good chance a chunk of the MDZS readership would enjoy DE but...it's also not a game I easily recommend#It's more of an experience you have to marinate over. It's dark in ways that are off putting to some people.#It makes you feel like a very bad person all the time. It gets extremely personal if you allow yourself to be honest in your answers#and it's also the game that saved my life. My life was truly forever changed after playing disco elysium.#If I recommend it to people it's a badge of the trust I have in you to appreciate something dear to me B'*)#If you decide to play: PLEASE go in as blind as possible. You will regret spoiling yourself.#edit: this is based on real disco elysium dialogue. HDB has many canon kinks but this is not one of them
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So I couldn't help but browse the THG tag bc those books own my whole heart. I actually check it now and again, and it's been interesting see how opinions have changed over the years, especially in regards to Gale and Peeta. Going through the evolution of them as just potential love interests to being far more complex than I could have expected has been a wild ride. Crazy how this reads different than from when I was a preteen.
That said, I wanted to give my unsolicited two cents on my boys, because though I have been enjoying the discussion on Peeta and Gale and what they mean to the story, I also feel like reducing them to Peeta = peace and Gale = war is far too simplistic... and oftentimes unfair to one or both of them.
See, I don't think Peeta and Gale are peace and war/destruction. They're compassion and indignation.
Peeta worries about the other tributes, or their families, or how to repay people like Rue and Thresh for what they did.
Gale is indignation at how the Capitol treats its citizens, it's anger at the injustice of inequality and brutality.
Both are needed in a story like THG. You can't have people like even Peeta not say something like "maybe we're wrong about keeping things quiet in the districts", you can't have him not drop the baby bomb, you can't start a revolution without Gale's indignation at the status quo. At deserving a better life but being denied it, at having your kids be mercilessly killed for literal sport.
However, if you start a rebellion and loose sight of your compassion, you end up no better than the people you're fighting against. Gale wasn't a bad person, imo. His heart was in the right place. He was flawed, yes, but so is everyone in this series. Gale, most importantly, lost sight of the line between fighting for the people he cared about and fighting against the people who hurt him.
Reducing Gale's indignation to just revenge and hatred ignores so much of what he stands for. Who hasn't seen laws passed that dehumanize people, who hasn't been angry and furious when someone is elected who fundamentally hates everything you are, who doesn't think some people need to pay for the atrocities they committed? There's a little bit of Gale in every single one of us - and it's important that it's there, because that's what gives us strength to challenge the status quo and make life better for the future generations.
But. You can't let it take over. You can't loose sight of your compassion or your empathy.
That's where Peeta comes in. Peeta is the voice in your head that worries about how many good lives will be lost when they give themselves up for this cause. Peeta is the worry about the people caught in the crossfire. Peeta is rebuilding when it's over and believing that the next generation will have a better life than your own. Peeta is being kind, even to people who may not deserve it.
And Gale... Gale looses sight of his compassion, and he doesn't realize it until it smacks him in the face when the bombs go off and Prim is gone and he's too far gone. Meanwhile, Peeta advocates for the end of the war even though it means the status quo remains - and regardless of what he believes himself, I don't think Suzanne chose him to say those lines by chance. It means both mindsets have their flaws: too kind and things that shouldn't remain will never be challenged and changed, too angry and you may loose sight of what you're fighting for.
And that's just how Suzanne uses her characters, both of them, all of them. Just look at who is with Katniss depending on the situation:
- Katniss chooses to "rebel" after Gale is brutally whipped. She kisses him.
- Katniss realizes that in order for D12 to rebel, everyone would need to be in on it, and she realizes most of them are not like her, that they're scared and she understands, emphasises with them. Peeta walks by her side.
- Katniss finally does it though, shoots the arrow at the force field, and Peeta is taken from her, it's now Gale by her side.
(You can't start a rebellion without indignation, and sometimes you HAVE to do it or things will never change, regardless of the inevitable pain that will come along.)
- Katniss is righteously angry at the Capitol bombing a hospital full of innocents to make a point. Gale remains there.
- Coin twists people's compassion into an army to fight for her own personal gain. Peeta is hijacked and looses his sense of self.
- Katniss and Gale go to District 2 and even though she tries to be like Peeta, she's still shot- reinforcing Gale's views, the person who was with her during that sequence.
- Katniss is angry at Snow, Katniss goes to the Capitol to kill him. Gale is there.
- Katniss gets in way over her head and realizes she is responsible for the death of most of her squad. She shares the lamb stew with Peeta, and later cleans his wounds.
- Finnick dies and she's at her lowest up until that point and all she wants to do is give up and give in to the anger. She kisses Peeta and begs him to stay with her.
... Claiming that Gale is destruction ignores the fact that he's with Katniss through her own moments of strength. Her desire to change things, to fight back, is as important as her compassion. Mockingjay just brutally shows you what war does to your indignation, to your compassion. How easy it is to cross a line between righteous anger and revenge, or how your sense of empathy and compassion can be manipulated into something monstrous by others, or by all the terrible, brutal, painful things you see.
How easy it is to loose yourself- and that goes for both of them.
Peeta and Gale aren't static characters, they go from representations of sentiments regarding an injust government to what happens to those feelings when an extreme situation such as war breaks out. All of that, by the way, while dealing with this duality themselves, because they are still characters who think and feel and struggle and have flaws of their own- and while I love what they stand for, I've seen too many comments that pin everything into what they mean, that they forget that Peeta and Gale are still people, they aren't perfect metaphors. They're human.
Ultimately, Katniss doesn't really choose peace. She wants peace, yes. But what she chooses is compassion. empathy. hope. There's a time and place for anger at injustice. There's a time when fighting back is the right thing to do. There are even times when you wanna give in to your despair and lash out. But if you want peace, then you have to choose Peeta, because Peeta represents what you need to focus on to achieve that peace. You have to let go of the anger or you won't ever rest. So Gale leaves, and does not come back... And yet, Katniss still has her moments of indignation, of making a stand, even as he goes - she still casts her vote at that meeting, she still shoots Coin. Katniss does not abandon that part of who she is. It's just not her main drive anymore.
So then she goes on to make the choice, every single day, to be compassionate to others. To have hope. To rebuild. Of course she chooses Peeta.
... Idk, man. These boys are so much more than what I see them so often reduced to. They're in all of us. There will be times to stand and fight, and times to show mercy and be kind. We just need to find that balance, as Katniss eventually did.
#the hunger games#thg#katniss everdeen#peeta mellark#gale hawthorne#it took me over a decade but I finally bit the bullet and decided to talk about this series#I love it so much#there's so much more I could say I had to hold myself back#like how BOTH Gale and Peeta are never fully gone even tho most people only focus on Peeta#But Gale knew what he did was wrong#It's not as clear bc he's not a pov character and katniss is too tired to try and read him but#prim's death touched him#he didn't brush it off he didnt see it as justified bc at least now its over#regardless of his reasons he still has enough sense of self to realize this#unlike y'know. characters like coriolanus who makes up so many excuses for what he did#including indirectly killing the character who is the personification of innocence and hope#like prim was#(side note I dont think any of the tbosas characters are direct parallels to the thg ones)#(theres little bits of katniss peeta AND gale in characters like snow)#(bc they're all representative of indignation and anger / compassion / fear and the need to feel safe)#(which every human being in the world has - even that bastard)#(he just chooses a different path)#(tbosas is very good btw)#(y'all should read it before the movie makes it about romance like I'm terrified it will)#ps if anyone knows how to put a read more on mobile can you let me know thx ily
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i cant stand feminist discourse on this site because its like 90% "feminism means equality which means you can't say anything bad about men and you have to criticize women just as much as men because misandry is just as bad as misogyny" and these posts always get thousands of notes from other people who call themselves feminists likeee
#the problem isn’t that women are immune to criticism it’s that they get overly criticized and judged to a much harsher degree than men#and to hear people say that we need to criticize women more or ‘stop pretending they’re all innocent angels’ is fucking infuriating#considering women actually get burned at the stake for expressing negativity toward men while men get to make misogynistic remarks and jokes#and get crowned for being so brave and having such a strong moral compass that they aren’t afraid to stomp down on women#like the shit with amber heard. everyone is so quickly to turn on women and demonize them when they’re literal victims and uplift men who#abuse them#but sure men are demonized in society and don’t feel cherished enough and that’s a problem! /s#neon talks#misogyny
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it just really breaks my heart that most of the discourse has to focus on dying children in order to humanize palestinians as if fully grown adult human beings don’t also deserve your attention, empathy, respect, and care
#it’s kind of always been the case as i’ve seen so many post across social media focus on women and children#but like i feel like since the rafah massacre with so many ppl changing the tide and showing more support towards palestine#so many of them are saying like ‘think of the children’#and like ‘my humanity won’t let me stand by and see children get hurt no matter what side’#and it’s like ok yeah but there are innocent teens and adult men and women and older men and women who are also suffering and dying#is your humanity saying fuck you to them or?????#like it’s just so sad that these dying children have to also be the ‘poster child’ for the war#they’ve suffered enough they’re pain shouldn’t have to be displayed in order for you to care#free palestine
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real suffering is learning that the awesome pretty girls in your chem class are also into starkid and you have no way to drop that you know what that is without it being completely out of the blue <//3 i'll just have to settle for liking all of their starkid innit reposts <///3 woe is me
#what's rlly funny is that i don't swear or anything#and keep rejecting everyone who asks me out#so there's this like. image around me at school that i'm ridiculously innocent#which is fair enough in most cases (modern slang & sex references are so weird)#but also it'd be so funny to see their reactions to finding out i listen to like#dirty girl and take off your clothes#& i watch stuff like abstinence camp completely of my own volition#one of then was shocked enough about me listening to heathers#i want her to learn that i too know all the choreo to cup of roasted coffee and every word in npmd <3#LOOK I THINK WE'RE ALL DOING A LEVELS AT THE SAME PLACE#THEY'RE SO COOL AND SMART AND PRETTY AND THEY'RE??? NICE TO ME????#it's crazy#i want to be their fren :)#i feel like if i got into a conversation sith them about starkid i would go so off the rails though#the least normal about it ever#starkid#starkid productions#starkid npmd#tgwdlm#team starkid#hatchetfield#starkid musicals#black friday starkid#trail to oregon#starkid twisted#holy musical b@man#firebringer#etc etc etc#i wonder if they've seen spies are forever..#starkid innit
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killer eating food in front of horror as a way to taunt him. duuuude do you see this delectable parfait he has in his hands right now. he just put a spoonful in his mouth. horror is scratching at his own arms right now (trying not to jump this bitchass). killer can't even taste it LMAOOO another bite ‼️ imagine not being able to eat food 🤣🤣🤣 killer can't even taste it and enjoy the food but horror can't even EAT food
then horror grabs the parfait glass out of his hands and oh killer you should probably teleport away before horror does to you what undyne did to his eye
#this SOUNDS mean but this is actually just their daily behavior. average horrorkiller interaction#the nice version of this is that killer eats the foods in place of horror#horror cant eat anymore but at least he gets to see someone else he doesnt mind eat. which is ok for now#however that's only a pipe dream for now we get horrorkiller mauling at eachother like rabid animals#something i like about horrorkiller is that they are NOT evenly matched at all#in kist i feel like dust could win if he gives like 400% but with horrorkiller????#NO DAMN WAY‼️💀 horror gives 400% and then killer just knocks him over again like a badly balanced figure#horror's strong but hes not strong enough to do anything to killer that he wont allow#which is just so funny. horror could have his original eye back and be at full power and killer just pins him down again#also people think that horror would hate killer for what he did in smthnew but it lowkey could be equal#like horror's rambling to killer about all the bullshit that happened in horrortale with queen undick and alphys the betrayer bitch#and then he gets to the part where he tricked snowdin into eating humans#and OBVIOUSLY horror's lying and trying to make himself seem innocent but killer's smarter than that#and after all that horror's just given this quick and barely discernable glance of contempt from killer#like MAN killing everyone is one thing but forcing them to eat humans?? that shit was so bad it made killer FEEL in stage 2 💀#it stings. horror doesnt wanna admit it (because WHY WOULD HE CARE ABOUT KILLERS OPINION!!!) but he's lowkey piiiiissed#its a mood swing but not one of those agressive loud violent ones. nah. horror ghosts killer#not that killer tries to get him to talk to him. he doesnt care enough. plus hes an eeeensy bit mad at horror too for what he did#i WOULD say horror gets over it but from what horrortale's shown he can hold 7 year long grudges. so erm#and thats why horrorkiller woukd never happen everyone! alright thanks for watching that's a wrap#you will never catch me talking about horrorkiller in a romantic way horror is an ARO man!!! he doesnt feel romantic attraction dare i say#and he'd rather die than be attracted to killer in any way anyways. and killer's just there. unlabelled uncaring unknowing king#killer doesn't have a stable sense of identity that just makes it even easier to slap a big ol HE DOES NOT CARE on his forehead#tricule rant#killer sans#horror sans#murder time trio#utmv#sans au#horrorkiller
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thinking abt doomed saw characters rn.......... particularly adam and william easton
adam survived the entire game. he survived a game where he wasn't even given instructions?? he was just roasted by john 💀💀 and even after he was left in that decrepit bathroom for god knows how long, it wasn't his own actions that got him killed. it was amanda taking pity on him. there was still time for someone to save him. adam should've lived and i will say this every single day until saw 2004 gets remade and he lives. like. that poor fucking guy. it wasn't even his game :(
as for william easton... god... don't get me started on this poor man. yes, he was running a terrible agency. what he did was fucked up. but he had to kill 7 FUCKING PEOPLE. 7 whole people!!! (if im counting right). he learned his lesson quicker than i think any saw protagonist has. he realized how fucked up his business practices were by like, his second game?? he did everything john asked him to do but guess what?? IT WASN'T HIS GAME!!!!!!! IT WASN'T HIS FUCKING GAME EITHER AND HE HAS TO DIE "FOR THE NARRATIVE" OR WHATEVER
#sawtism#punching john kramer in the face#i get so sick over these two specifically#adam was completely innocent#that wasn't his game and he still won#amanda should've set him free and NOT in the way she did#william however...........#i know he fucked up#but i couldn't help but feel so bad for him#he tried so hard#he learned so quickly#and it still wasn't enough#7 people had to die anyways#he killed 7 people just to be killed himself#saw makes me sick#i love it but it makes me sick#piranha man#adam :3#saw#adam stanheight#adam faulkner stanheight#william easton#saw vi
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As an alternative to my last question post, hello again milgramblr, who are you entirely certain you Will Not vote guilty in trial 3, no matter what is revealed?
#Milgram#personally its gonna be kazui and shidou. Shidou cuz he makes me sad enough that no matter what i will at worst abstain#Kazui makes me so inconsolably sad that i just. I can’t. I would cry i think. /joke but i will not guilty him no matter what that im sure o#Also amane. As much as she isn’t a favourite of mine she doesnt deserve a t3 guilty#I’d also say probably yuno? Im most likely gonna abstain cuz i dont really feel a strong enough emotion about her but i do think she deserv#S to be innocently yippee#Answer my questions boy#im tagging it with that now#bonus answer hihi this is an edit#im plannin for everyone inno personnalllyyyy? these r just the ones i will never press guilty on no matter what#im too attatched yo them hahaha
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idk i just think it’s a little weird that almost every character who gets the “innocent baby” / “little ray of sunshine” treatment usually ends up just having neurodivergent traits and actual negative traits in the show that nobody pays attention to. like idk man it just feels like diet infantilization to me and it’s a teeny weeny bit uncomfortable to see all the time
#what’s even weirder is that half of these precious sunshine baby characters will canonically have some kind of temper too 😭😭#like sorry I don’t think Adrien is an innocent ray of sunshine he was literally destroying property out of spite 😭😭#cal.txt#autism stuff#fandom ableism#infantilization#she ra spop#entrapta#spn#supernatural#jack kline#autistic jack kline#adrien agreste#Like of course he isn’t canonically ND but the whole angle of his social awkwardness and unawareness#miraculous ladybug#it’s still a common trait in ND people and it’s probably the most infantilized aspect of us#but come on man#and don’t even get me started on jack. we know how I feel#TLDR jack strangling the gas n sip employee in a rage so blind he had to be shot in the back to snap out of it#like am I alone in this am I detecting a pattern that nobody else is .#siigghhh#we will never be free 😭😭😭😭#castiel#at some point in the fandom and probably still in a few corners#autistic representation#this goes for when a character is simply coded that way too#like I cannot stress enough how coding and representation work#I also cannot stress enough that ableism does not have to be intentional to be ableism holy BALLS dude#you can do it by accident!!! you can play into tropes that you didn’t realize were bad!!!! ITS NOT A MORAL FAILING ON YOUR PART#it’s just a product of society like everything else.
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I feel like we collectively moved on from the fact that Cyno's parents literally sold him to some random temple for mora a bit too fast.
On that note, might be a hot take, but both Bamoun and Cyrus suck as people. Bamoun more than Cyrus obviously, but it really irked me how Cyrus was more worried about "oh that power is yours you can't let anyone else have it" then. Idk. His adoptive son?? (I know that wasn't exactly what he was saying but like damn).
Throughout the entire quest they kept bringing up Hermanubis and all that stuff while almost never acknowledging that both Cyno and Sethos were forced into a quite frankly cruel ritual as children, and had to deal with their superior's beef and issues as they grew up.
#feel free to correct me on anything i said here#i did really like how cyno emphasized that he was his own person outside of his power#but i feel like that wasn't given enough attention#fuck bamoun tbh#nobody's gonna convince me this guy was a good person#he was a horrible person that got innocent children involved for his own ideals#“oh but the lore of hermanubis-” doesn't excuse what he did#cyrus is almost just as bad but he seems a little more self-aware#cyno#sethos#genshin impact#genshin#cyno second story quest#shut up marina
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He said "Fuck this shit, I'm out" I'm crying. Toriyama's Vegeta was so top shelf 🤌
(From Neko Majin Z Chapter 5!)
#dbtag#Idk why Toei didn't lean into Vegeta being a version of Piccolo you could put in funnier situations like Toriyama wrote#He's reserved and professional and proud but JUST immature enough to bite down on a gag that Piccolo would readily swerve#But they take a lot of Goku's chaotic comedy away too in favor of Hero(tm) writing and that is why I keep pulling my hair out aklsjdlas#Toriyama was sO funny and it bums me out so much that the anime derailed how lighthearted and straight up silly the humor is#and replaced it with Misogyny Is Funny and humiliation kinks asjklfhadjk and it's not just my complaints about Vegeta and Bulma!!#“Goku is running away from his very reasonable wife because he is a goofy little guy who doesn't want to do his chores” becomes#“Chichi is Cruel to Goku who is Trying to be a good husband because she doesn't relate to his passions and vilifies him for having them"#which is not their dynamic at all but dudes in the writing room are like “being married is fucking awful amirite fellas hahaha”#but Toriyama was like “Being married is not for everybody but it can be really great if you and your partner are on the same page”#Chichi's reasonable! And Goku isn't romantically wired but Goku can enthusiastically consent to sex and still not enjoy kissing#those things can be and are true for a lot of people! And it makes even more sense if you hc Goku to be aspec (and audhd coded) like I do#Kissing can feel gross and can be a sensory overload for many folks. Doesn't mean they're stupid or innocent.#(although Goku CAN still ride nimbus so idk what Pure entails in this universe askljad)#Like I am the FIRST person to joke and drag Goku about his marriage as an aspec myself but like legit Goten is a Last Night On Earth baby#He knows what sex is. But also between how socially removed Goku is and how Shy and Conservative Chichi it's not out of line#to assume the actual words sex and kiss have never been spoken in that house skljdlajdf I FULLY believe Chichi uses code words#Chichi thinks her son being blonde makes him a delinquent and still uses honorifics with Goku like it is fully reasonable to assume#that the joke of Goku's naivetè centers around the fact that his wife is too embarrassed to talk about Certain Matters in a normal way#While Bulma and Vegeta are slutty hedonistic cityfolk who need jesus (according to chichi probably...and me but I support them)#anyway. point is. Toriyama was funny as hell and Nekomajin is absolutely ridiculous and goofy and has a fully amoral main character#which just reminded me that toei is allergic to letting goku be a gremlin and so vegeta's not allowed to be a gremlin wrangler#even though that's been his job since the day he met raditz alksdjaskljd
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i havent met a single megumi hater who didn't miss the entire point of the fucking manga
#the point of jjk is to allow children innocence#without burdening them with the ridiculous complexities and nonsense of the adult world#not making people fight battles for you etc#“why is megumi so unmotivated” HE DOESNT WANT TO BE HERE#he feels a) protective of his sister and b) indebted to gojo thats IT#“whys megumi so depressed he needs to be better”#i hate u specifically hes fifteen hes watched everyone ranging from people he loves to mildly likes die brutally#hes a sorcerer for the same reason im a pharmacist im good enough at it and i dont want my family to be poor#its apparently too much for the basement dwellers to image a fantasy world where people dont want to be forced to fight#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#megumi fushiguro#tsumiki fushiguro#gojo satoru#my posts#text post#ik theres a better way to put what im trying to say#every time i see a megumi hater its always oh hes useless in fights or oh hes depressed#genuinely i hope you get media literacy skills one day
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actually. the specific phrasing that boy Kevin wants to kill older Kevin with "I must disassemble him, piece by piece, so that everything inside of the Old Kevin comes out. Only then can the New Kevin truly begin." is so incredibly the idea that to heal from trauma and "improve" you have to destroy every "wrong" part of yourself, that everything "tainted" by it has to somehow be replaced by something untouched (which isn't possible)
#reading back that phrasing I do think that'll be the way brinknor takes it#this arcs seeming like it'll be so. breaking the cycle of abuse and violence and coming to terms with yourself#and maybe understanding that you can never remove the parts of you impacted by trauma and start again completely ''pure''#but you can treat yourself with the kindness you should've been given#which i hope it is that because. and understand i am biased. but i'd love that direction for Kevin#it feels much more satisfying than any more. angsty way this arc could go imo#like he's been through enough!#because of the way Kevin is portrayed in fanon. not as frequently anymore but still pretty common. I worry about coming off as woobifying#by saying I want him to heal I want him to have nice things I think he deserves them#when he's also simultaneously Not A Good Person#yknow the poor little innocent cinnamon roll baby etc etc fanon#but. well for one im Not Like That about him. but my main point of bringing that up is. him not being a good person is why I want to see hi#get better and generally have a good life. why does someone have to be good to deserve to heal from trauma#especially when trauma is a big reason for the way they are#like its fiction yeah yeah i'm still tired of mentally ill people having to be ''good'' to ''deserve'' to get better yknow#i mean especially in fiction you tend to either see mental illness as the poor traumatized one who's allowed recovery because they're nice#or the insane psychopath who cant be ''fixed'' so ''deserves'' bad things-up to deserving to die!- for it#i didnt mean for this to be a rant erm. oops#wtnv#wtnv spoilers#joyousposting
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not sure anyone’s gonna like me saying this but I do believe cesare allowed lucrezia to be an accomplice to him killing alfonso so that he could justify them being together in his head. like, he had rufio waiting downstairs for his command to finish alfonso off, and yet when he saw lucrezia mixing the cantarella he just stays, watching her, commenting to himself that she is a professional. he's spent most of the season pulling away from her, from their shared feelings because one of his main goals throughout the whole series is protecting her innocence and once they've crossed the rubicon, he feels his failure at protecting her innocence like a weight crushing him. and then this near perfect opportunity to just let all that weight fall away lands in his lap and he just thinks if she is willing, why let the opportunity go to waste? why step in and say that he started this, he should be the one to end it or tell her that rufio will end alfonso's agony? and so, he doesn't and she cleans up his mess, making her directly responsible for the death of an innocent, therefore, making it possible in cesare's mind for them to finally give into their feelings without him feeling like he's failing her as her older brother.
#text#the borgias#lucrezia x cesare#otp: we are the unholy family#mel talks#and that's kind of the problem isn't it#because lucrezia was willing to give in already#she didn't see them consummating their love as her soul being sentenced to hell like he did#she saw it as something holy and something blessed by god himself#that is until cesare did the only thing that would make her feel like their love was of the devil not god#(killing an innocent and making her party to his crime)#which is one step further than what juan did when he killed paolo#and cesare knew that!!#and yet....he did what he did anyway#all so he could tell himself it's okay to love his sister the way he does and it's okay to let her love him in the same way#cesare borgia you deserve hell!!#why does ces think he needs to justify everything he does to himself??#why couldn't you loving her be enough reason to justify being with her you fucking fool??!#god please rot in hell you deserve nothing less!!
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